Hey kids. My life has been a bit of a shipwreck these last couple of weeks. Transitions, seemingly impossible battles, lost luggage, and forgotten obligations. I am not feeling my best self, though I know I ought allow myself more grace for the days that are in a constant state of upheaval. So my grace today is in recycling an old poem. Because my mind is too on fire, and yet still disconnected, and I do not have the space for much else today.

My River

My river runs deep 
and walks shallow
into the porous nature
of bed-rocked layers
the clay and sand
and above to deer-perked ears
silent hoof prints on banks
sunk in

My river is the tumble of rock
into sand
and foamy puffs 
in swirling whirls
quick eddies of frantic joy 
released 
and the unforgiving relentless call
to keep moving

My river begs spotted trout 
slip through the icy fingers
of its burbling caress
wet swells against
the willow banks
and plays below the soft wings 
of mayflies dancing
round poles of half-sunken timber

My river is the mirror
a night of stars
the giving dark 
splashed with milk
and splattered with a forgiveness
of perspective in light years
of still thoughts
and letting go things
too far away, 
too long gone
to be mine

My river is the blood
hushing through veins
the secrets in history
the timeless genomes and
photographs carrying ghosts
with no remembered names
but they have my eyes,
the rise of cheekbone
the propensity to carry
all this grief 
in the generous swell of my hips